Day 2

January 25, 2010

Here we are at day two! I feel great on the inside but my throat and ears are doing horrible! I can’t believe this sickness has totally got me this time round. Well first day of school was a success and I’m ready for tomorrow!

I threw up twice this morning because I was coughing so much… yeah I know it was painful. Sometimes I can barely catch my breath when these things come on. I was in line at the bank on saturday and had to leave cause my cough was so bad I couldn’t stand in line, almost the same thing happened at the post office.

I’m still feeling a bit self-conscious about my weight even though I’ve lost 10 pounds I really sometimes don’t like the fact that I’m still big and I just want this all to GO AWAY! My sister was telling me about the show the Biggest Loser and how the people on there have so many mental problems being the fat person and I wanted to tell her I’m losing weight too but I haven’t said a thing to any of my family or friends because I’m not ready yet. I really just want to surprise them.

My friend who’s wedding I’m in is helping me find a pattern for the dress I’m going to wear and I really want to tell her I’ll be really thin by the time here wedding comes around so don’t worry but she just thinks I don’t really like the dress… I sooo wanted to to tell her or give a hint but I WILL not do that. I want people to start seeing a change in me rather than going around telling everyone “I’m Changing!!!” So here’s to another day skinner, healthier and more energetic. I will be seeing my health psychologist soon and I’ll let you know what we chat about and the new things she’s helping me with.

Thank you for your support and helping me on my way. I’ll do the same for you!




January 23, 2010

Looks like I got a lot sicker than I knew I was! Wow Bronchitis and the Flu and a cold. This to me means that I must have had a lot of toxins built up in body and they all decided to come right on out! haha

Well tomorrow is the start date again, I am even more determined to do this than when I actually started so maybe this sickness thing was a good thing. I’ve come to many self realizations these past few days of sickness and I really feel liberated in so many ways both physically and mentally.

I’ve just gotten a job with the leading Ballet company in my town to be a pianist for their next big production so this is a chance to really change who I am and let people see and meet the new and improved me! I can’t wait to get started. My endurance is up but I know what the next few days have in store so please send encouragement my way so I can move forward with these new changes.

Thank you for all your support,